Going backwards?????

Whoa! I knew this would happen when I went back to work and now it has not stopped...chaos! I got busy at work, went out of town, and hubby is out of town for two weeks, and I haven't had my eyes on the crown. As a matter of fact, I have been feeling very yucky! A part of me is wondering if I still want to do the pageant in March.

Most people will say that I normally interview well, but the swimsuit is not good because my size 10 looks like a size 20 next to a size 2 or 6! Did I say a size 10! Yelp, I said it...and that is only because I have some Boom Boom Pow in the back! All my life I have had a lot of junk in the trunk and a tiny waist. Now, I have a defined waist and still some junk. My husband told me last week that since I started exercising and dieting I have been more concerned about my butt and how it looks. I change a few times in the morning to avoid pants that hug by butt, but I have always been this way. I don't like revealing clothes.

I contacted the director of the pageant because I wanted her to know that I probably would not be entering the pageant. Then, I ordered my crystals for my dress. I think I am living in fear...I am afraid to compete. I don't want to lose...is it okay to say that? If it isn't its said!

Well...this Sunday is the Superbowl and the Saints are going to be marching into Miami...whether or not they win the big one...they have gotten to the Bowl. No longer are they one of five teams never to go to the big dance. They made it....regards of the outcome they did their thing. I like that in them...it inspires me to want to do what I have to do to put the crown on my head. I would like the chance to wear the crown as Mrs. Louisiana United States and promote volunteerism and organ donation in my state. I would like the chance to wear that crown to Las Vegas and compete for the national title and even if I wouldn't win, I would simply like to place. Hey, its Vegas baby!

I guess football and pageantry are a lot alike...its players and contestants have to bring their best game to the field/stage, but before that they must be physically and mentally prepared for the game. And once the game begins, they must forge ahead and give it their all until the bitter end. If swimsuit is only 20 % and interview is 50% what am I worried about? That would be the judges thinking that I could not get physically fit to take my game up a notch! And I can tell you that if I would win that title...my game would move from A to AAA! My best friend would be exercise.

Okay...I've had enough...I am coming back, so stay tuned for my next entry after the Superbowl