Out here grindin.....

I had planned to hire a personal trainer to help me prepare for the crown, but some unexpected things came up...Micaiah and I are trying to go to Las Vegas with NAM for the Miss America pageant and my SUV is acting a little crazy...so I am back to waking up at 4:30 to go to Bootcamp at 5:00. Went this morning it was Great....Mo had us working on arms, quad and abs...that is what I needed. Later, I came home and did a Fat Burner Tae Bo workout...don't really like Tae Bo, but it was okay. I have planned my meals for the rest of the day and if all goes well, I will have managed my fat and carb intake.

Today, I boiled a dozen of eggs and I ate the two as snacks. Unfortunately, I have an extreme dislike for yolks, which is why I don't eat scrambled eggs. I plan to drink a gallon of lemon based water within two days...I am wearing out the wood to the bathroom. I will wake up at 4:30 on Tuesday and then workout at home on Wednesday then hit the gym on Thursday and Friday. I go back to work on Monday and the 5:00 workouts will help me get through the day. I got some Kashi bars to snack on next week. I will bring a couple of boiled eggs and water! I will make this work. I am going to work hard with Mo and Daniel and Terry to get the body sculpted because I represent their business. If I don't transform me, I will do a disservice to them.

I got my dress already, I know that is not important, but one less thing to worry about. I got my interview suit, another thing off my list. I have swimsuit ideas but I will work with Debbie on that later. Many people say that one should just do a pageant and not worry about anyone. It is rather hard to compete when one is not at their optimal competition level. As many know, unless one is doing a plus pageant, many of the winners are not over a size 8....but that has changed and I would like to continue to change that...I will end up transforming my body to the point that I will look healthy and be confident in whatever I wear. Realistically, not many married women with children are less than a size 6, if you are...live it up and enjoy life. One thing I want to make perfectly clear is that a pageant is not the reason for this change, it is my wanting to be a better me. If it helps in the end with the pageant, that will be icing on my Red Velvet Cake....yes, a piece would be warranted if I win the crown but training would commence immediately for Nationals. But, that is three months in the making....

Personally, I am actually heavier than I was when I was pregnant with Micaiah in 2002! My hysterectomy changed my body and my metabolism...oh that is hormones! I have a pouch that I never had after delivering Micaiah...my waist is actually 6 inches wider than it was when I was in college, so that is not bad. My boobies have gone South, but I can fix that with some tape for swimsuit. Regardless, I refuse to make surgical changes because I don't handle anethesia well, so I gotta work it out!